Chyrgy - Uncut

[Sir Didier Drogba]

But six days of partying? You must have some great stories? Some great sex stories, some crazy brushes with the law, winding up at some great late night raves, meeting new friends, flirting with girls, some random encounters, some hilarious moments, thrown out of some clubs, treated like a hero in others - I mean, you must have had a pretty amazing time, to have raved for a week solid, right?

 

[chygry]

Yeah absolutely, jesus I'll have a line so I'll give you a little sum up I don't feel like typing for 10 minutes trying to find the right words. Sec.

 

[Sir Didier Drogba]

I'm so excited!

 

[chygry]

Thursday - I think that's when my drinking at home got out of control, stayed up all night continued during the day. Difficult to remember it. Well basically that's how my binges start. With alcohol, I slow down with it though mostly.

Friday - I honestly have trouble remembering so I'll forward it to Sunday I had some stuff to take care of that doesn't worth mentioning etc.

Saturday or Sunday - Got desperate for some stuff met up with some people had a great time. Finally went to sleep on Early Tuesday morning I believe.

Monday - A bit hungover hanged out with some people got something to keep me up got home in the evening couldn't sleep.

Tuesday - Woke up around lunchtime. Figured I'm done with this.. Planned to have a few beers watching football in the evening... When the match started didn't care had my last lines drank all my beers... During the night I watched series or a movie having switched to vodka.

Today don't feel like talking about. Haven't slept since Tuesday.

All the encounters and fun stuff I'd prefer not to share because it's private... Look probably if i'd be drunk right now I'd tell you more and would have no problem going into more depth. Remember my crazy thread that was all drunken madness... Well posted when I was completely out of it I wouldn't spill my guts like this never when in this condition.

 

[chygry]

Anyway something like that I left out the amounts and well consumed stuff. I don't like talking about it so openly. Look the more I snort here the more sober it makes me from the booze. Yeah I've been slowly going at it the whole night. And well I haven't even been hungover properly.. Just some chest and stomach pain. Basically drugs take it away.. I don't feel like crap when I run out, also too often and it becomes pointless.

 

[chygry]

I know this is nothing very interesting to read, but I've had a grand time over this week. And yeah if you must know I did actually meet some new people.. Again not going to say how... This is extreme abuse to be honest and I don't want everybody to know that. Well happy?

EDIT: Oh and also when I drink alone I get tipsy but never extremely drunk. Only with other people now on special occasions... Drinking a litre of vodka last night caused me to get mad drug cravings this morning, knowing then I would avoid the hangover from booze. Yeah I'm probably an addict but whatever.

 

[chygry]

Should end this soon, all I need is rest. If I somehow manage to get drunk then I'll go and take a break I suppose. If there's anything more then just ask I'm telling you I'm tired and don't really know what to say, typing so slowly isnä't helping either. Just booze & powder keep me running.. Oh and typing all this made me think that all this and so often is not normal when going it through like that.

At least I managed to get over my drinking problems, the serious ones so for now i'm fine. Also made myself sound quite bad by telling all this I suppose.

 

[Sir Didier Drogba]

I'm really happy that you have got over your drinking problems.

 

[chygry]

Thanks I guess. Been like that for a while I guess. Back in the day I'd drink real fast and basically couldn't start the day without a drink to function. Awful.

Obviously I still drink but it's lost its' magic for me. I don't like getting too drunk and when I do I get very bad hangovers. Actually not so bad anymore, but I don't drink alone anymore like I used to go for week-long benders, and it was just basically impossible to stop at some point. Nowadays I just like to get a little buzz going and that's it for me.

Actually typing all this shit I've done throughout the past week down made me think that I should perhaps stop this nonsense like soon. Not a healthy way to live at all.

Perhaps I should turn off in 30 minutes or so, but who knows. Managed to get a little tipsy and now I don't feel so tired anymore. Doesn't make much sense I know, but even depressants can keep me up for long. Anyway there's nothing much more to type about I suppose.

 

[Pogba4Now]

I have read just 1 % of this thread because I can't read. I just have 1 question for chygry: what contribution have you ever made for your community? Have you ever done 1 thing other than satisfying your needs/wants/pleasures?

I'm curious thats all. You don't have to reply if you don't want to.

 

[Sir Didier Drogba]

Thanks I guess. Been like that for a while I guess. Back in the day I'd drink real fast and basically couldn't start the day without a drink to function. Awful.

Obviously I still drink but it's lost its' magic for me. I don't like getting too drunk and when I do I get very bad hangovers. Actually not so bad anymore, but I don't drink alone anymore like I used to go for week-long benders, and it was just basically impossible to stop at some point. Nowadays I just like to get a little buzz going and that's it for me.

Actually typing all this shit I've done throughout the past week down made me think that I should perhaps stop this nonsense like soon. Not a healthy way to live at all.

Perhaps I should turn off in 30 minutes or so, but who knows. Managed to get a little tipsy and now I don't feel so tired anymore. Doesn't make much sense I know, but even depressants can keep me up for long. Anyway there's nothing much more to type about I suppose.

I'm just happy that you don't have a problem any more and now get wasted every night all night on huge amounts of drugs and booze because you want to, and not like before when you had a problem and therefore did it because you had to. Because now you don't have a problem you might aswell do it because it's only a problem if you have a problem

 

[chygry]

Oh I have no problems responding to that question.

I cannot really think of anything worth notable I'm afraid. If you think this something I'm again "proud" of then no. Community not I guess. But does helping out people/friends in need count? I'm no egoist if that's what you're aiming at, just haven't really had to do anything so far in life, being too spoiled etc. Messed up at school, but the conditions I've lived in all kind of worked against me. Then a few other things etc and right now I'm in just kind of a limbo.

I consider my needs/wants/pleasures important of course, but no more than anyone others'. I absolutely loathe it when people worry about me and are concerned because of my lifestyle. That's why I don't exactly "advertise" everything I do regarding drinking and you know to my closest ones meaning relatives. Not to get them worried about me when there's no need to. Of course they do still, but I always tell them there is no need for that, I don't have any real problems with health and all the abuse hasn't really hurt my body and if they know and believe me, it makes me content.

Unfortunately I've given it a lot to them, but as I said it's a lot better lately after I got over my drinking problems. They were the worst, but I was younger then and stupid. I've learned from that, and have improved my lifestyle. While it might not sound so. As long as I don't drink like that people around me are glad I guess which is important for me. They look more lightly at drug use I suppose, not that they support it. Doesn't do nearly as much damage to my body as alcohol. I'm no everyday junkie though and know my limits and if I don't cross them people don't worry which is very important to me. I guess that's that.

I hope it was a proper answer I don't know what you wanted to hear exactly but yeah I think I went through most. I don't feel like writing a novel here either.

 

[kp41]

But six days of partying? You must have some great stories? Some great sex stories, some crazy brushes with the law, winding up at some great late night raves, meeting new friends, flirting with girls, some random encounters, some hilarious moments, thrown out of some clubs, treated like a hero in others - I mean, you must have had a pretty amazing time, to have raved for a week solid, right?

no story, he just posts here

 

[Bobby]

You should get an addictive hobby. Get really into fitness or something, maybe become one of those archcapitalists.

 

[chygry]

I'm just happy that you don't have a problem any more and now get wasted every night all night on huge amounts of drugs and booze because you want to, and not like before when you had a problem and therefore did it because you had to. Because now you don't have a problem you might aswell do it because it's only a problem if you have a problem

Yeah I know I might sound like a hypocrite saying that. But you have no idea what it used to be. Trust me if I talked to some person face to face right know who knows me a bit without me telling that person that I'm on something. The person wouldn't even understand. At least most wouldn't.

I'm far from being wasted and I can handle drugs at extreme amounts, but the latter I don't do. I snort reasonably, same with alcohol, but I'm talking about a night/day like today. There are obviously others, but I get really _wasted_ on special occasions only. Having 10 beers for example during the night or a couple of bottles of wine or 0.5l vodka over a long period of time is different. Also I can always sober up if I want to with some help should it be required if there's some. Trust me a lot of my friends said that had I stayed in the capital I would probably be dead already. Less drugs probably, but heavy drinking which just isn't for my body. Ok I think I've written enough.

I know it's nothing golden but I'm not on something 24/7. It just happens to be such a period.

 

[chygry]

You should get an addictive hobby. Get really into fitness or something, maybe become one of those archcapitalists.

Oh I know the solution already and I guess I'm working on it. That would be a start. Will see.

This sounds idiotic of me, but I'll probably never quit some stuff for good at least. I realize that this way of living sounds way too extreme for someone who only drinks responsibly for example. I would think the same way and I've seen all kinds of characters and trust me this is nothing compared to some things I've seen.

And obviously you're right, some kind of a hobby or an activity which would keep me busy would also help. Anyway I mostly know all this already. You might think I'm some total imbecile because of my lifestyle, but at least I consider myself quite smart, as do many others. But this is something I don't feel like arguing about. People see others differently and I almost never feel like I need to prove to be right about anything.

EDIT: And people are so different of course. Obviously if some person without any experience and tolerance regarding these things would one day wake up and go for like that for a week. It would obviously cause some problems. This is not me being proud of myself just have to say. Just stating a fact (the first part of the editing part).

 

[chygry]

no story, he just posts here

What do you need some stories for? It's your privilege to believe whatever you want. Sir_Didier_Drogba asked me a question and I finally explained some things a little. And for example good times I've had might not sound so fun for others especially if it involves this kind of lifestyle. Some loathes alcohol for example and might laud off the experience I found great just because of that. That's just some random example.

 

[Pogba4Now]

Oh I have no problems responding to that question.

I cannot really think of anything worth notable I'm afraid. If you think this something I'm again "proud" of then no. Community not I guess. But does helping out people/friends in need count? I'm no egoist if that's what you're aiming at, just haven't really had to do anything so far in life, being too spoiled etc. Messed up at school, but the conditions I've lived in all kind of worked against me. Then a few other things etc and right now I'm in just kind of a limbo.

I consider my needs/wants/pleasures important of course, but no more than anyone others'. I absolutely loathe it when people worry about me and are concerned because of my lifestyle. That's why I don't exactly "advertise" everything I do regarding drinking and you know to my closest ones meaning relatives. Not to get them worried about me when there's no need to. Of course they do still, but I always tell them there is no need for that, I don't have any real problems with health and all the abuse hasn't really hurt my body and if they know and believe me, it makes me content.

Unfortunately I've given it a lot to them, but as I said it's a lot better lately after I got over my drinking problems. They were the worst, but I was younger then and stupid. I've learned from that, and have improved my lifestyle. While it might not sound so. As long as I don't drink like that people around me are glad I guess which is important for me. They look more lightly at drug use I suppose, not that they support it. Doesn't do nearly as much damage to my body as alcohol. I'm no everyday junkie though and know my limits and if I don't cross them people don't worry which is very important to me. I guess that's that.

I hope it was a proper answer I don't know what you wanted to hear exactly but yeah I think I went through most. I don't feel like writing a novel here either.

What do your close friends do? I wonder how you make close friends when you have not been working or going to school for such a long time. Most friends are usually made at school/work.

Your main problem was your situation when you were in high school I think. If you had finished high school your situation would have been different nowadays. Now its too late to finish high school. Without high school, your prospects for the future are extremely limited, I'm afraid.

Unless you want to start a business (you need capital), work in things like labor work, which you will never do because you're "too good for that".

Your funding will not last forever.

 

[Xaviesta]

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[chygry]

What do your close friends do? I wonder how you make close friends when you have not been working or going to school for such a long time. Most friends are usually made at school/work.

Your main problem was your situation when you were in high school I think. If you had finished high school your situation would have been different nowadays. Now its too late to finish high school. Without high school, your prospects for the future are extremely limited, I'm afraid.

Unless you want to start a business (you need capital), work in things like labor work, which you will never do because you're "too good for that".

Your funding will not last forever.

What my close friends do? Well basically all of them work. Oh I've got plenty of them, but that's not the issue here.

You're right about the high school thing. Look the thing is that nowadays you can't get shit with only high school education. There are so many people who cannot even find proper jobs with much higher education. So it's not really the biggest of my worries. A lot counts on who you know around here as well. I don't like to dwell in the past though, "what could've been" etc. Crying about it won't make any difference, I tend to move on. What's done is done.

I do have an high opinion of myself, but that doesn't mean that I consider people who work at such jobs anything less. And yeah I know that my funding won't last forever. But mostly when I'm in a tough spot I get my act together and figure things out usually. So if I had no other options of course I wouldn't be like "no fucking way that's not for me". Depends on the job of course but I mostly mean in general.

That's all common knowledge basically, but you're spot on about everything you said except the high school education being THAT important around here. It wouldn't hurt, but I doubt you know the local situation here so well so it's understandable.

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Yeah be grateful to Sir_Didier_Drogba. Sometimes some weird stuff appearing on the forums can be refreshing.