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Tough luck bro. When you do decide what college to go to, make the right choice onwhether you want D1 or not. I at first wanted to go to a D1-D3 school, but wasn't heavily recruited and chances are I wasn't going to play as much. So instead I decided to go to a NAIA Div 3 school here in Kansas and I've received more playing time than I ever could, I've also receieved some hardware ( Conference Champs) and the title of best turnaround program for the last 70 years.
If you want to take things slow I highly recommend going for the smaller schools and then working your way up, with your cautious mind set and your assumed D1 skill level you should be allright and stand out when you do go on a team. After playing here for two years now ( i'm going to be a junior next fall ) i've looked around and have been recruited by 8 D3-schools, 5 D2-Schools and 2 D1-Schools and several NAIA schools.
I hope all ends up working out for you bud, and about what people say about you, dont let that influence your decision on where to go, because there are about a million other kids who are getting the same thing--- I was told since my freshman year that I'm allright and get the job done, i'm not compared to any real player because i'm myself and that has helped me keep my head low and focused. I'm just speaking from experience, so i thought i'd pass it on, not trying to sound like some college guru but college soccer and highschool are two very different organizations, oh and in college the game is rougher beyond belief and faster, it makes highschool level look like highschool girls soccer...ugh.
peace
m.l